Well hello my friends!
It has been quite some time since we were here, 205 days to be exact. Hope you have been amazing. How have I been? LOL, no idea. Maybe once I fill you guys in I’ll have some sort of idea. I’m sort of finding my way back into the swing of things and ready to fill you guys in on everything that has been happening in my life.
If you haven’t noticed I’m no longer operating under barbellebeautyy, you can find me everywhere at simmyjhassan. We’ll get around to how I finally made the decision to make the change. If you know me, I can be very indecisive.
Let’s get into this update already. Forgive me, I won’t be surprised if I am all over the place. I’m still trying to process and understand where I’m at right now.
My last post was on April 16, 2022. I was 15 days into Ramadan and during that time I usually try to devote more of my time to God. I made content after Ramadan, but never published it. Ramadan ended on May 1st and after that life got busy, because hello it was summer time. I don’t know what got into everyone this summer, but I literally had an event if not every weekend, it was every other week. If you follow me on Instagram you’ll know that I finally purchased my dream car, here name is Whitney. I’m not a fan of big cars, so she’s the perfect size for me. Ash was in baseball camp that we had to attend every Saturday from end of May all the way to the end of July.
On July 11th, I celebrated by 33rd birthday and people kept asking me what I wanted. I didn’t have an answer for them. This year I was at a place where I had everything I wanted. There was nothing I was itching for, so I was happy with whatever I received. I really felt blessed and thankful for that.
August, that is where all the change happen. Where my life was shaken up a bit, things were no longer “perfect.”
How do I say this? For the first time in my life, I was laid off. I’ve never experienced it, I didn’t see it coming ( I shouldn’t have been surprised), and it was just out of the blue. A piece of me felt as though I wasn’t good enough and all I could think was, “why me?” At Peloton, I saw myself as a professional. It really set the tone for me and the things I look for in company culture. And for that to be taken away from me with no warning honestly hit me pretty hard. Initially I tried to act as if everything was okay, but as the week went by my emotions kind of spiraled. I even took out on one of my best friends which I still can’t even believe I did that. Take it from me guys, when you say The remainder of August was hard for me. I know how long it took me because on September 1st I wrote in my diary,
Today-Sunday I want to “reset” and really set myself up for success. I want to apply to 5-10 jobs daily, even more if I can. I want to look at my vision board and really make a change these next few months.
I purposely took those 3 weeks to actually enjoy just being off. To no worry about all the things I was usually responsible for. Peloton hasn’t been doing the best, so I know it wasn’t because of my capabilities as a leader. I was no longer challenged and had flirted with the idea of searching for opportunities. I just never took the leap. I see it as a blessing in disguise.
In that time I also thought, I want to be more serious with my content. That’s when I changed all my social handles to simmyjhassan. It just felt more me and this way it doesn’t put me in a box. Yes, I love lifting heavy weights + working out, but there are so many other layers to me. I want to share other parts of me with you guys as well. So, I changed it.
And my content is still not where I want it to be. I feel like I am in a rediscovery phase. I’m gearing myself up for all the things that I have told myself I am going to do. Making sure I have all of my content ideas lined up. Doing multiple interviews weekly. The grind isn’t going to stop because of a tiny setback. Very thankful that I am in a position where I have support and a husband to lean on.
I’m honestly just ready for my new journey and to bring you all along for the ride.
So, thank you. Thank you for taking time out of your day to see what has been going on with me. If you’re at a place where you are struggling or things aren’t going as expected … you are not alone! No one has it all together and everyone goes through hard times.
The end. Hope you enjoyed my little update. I have been working hard on my content to share with you guys. Stay in the know and click here.