Do I hate my body? No, I’m just not satisfied with where I’m at currently and that is okay. It’s okay because I know what I am capable of and recognize what is hindering my progress. I have shared my postpartum weight loss journey with you all and 3.5 years later, I’m still on that journey. I shared my first post on February 17, 2019, ready to tackle WHOLE30. I did measurements and all, you can check it out for yourself, OH SNAP|BEFORE PICTURES! I’ve done Whole30 I believe for about 5 rounds and each time the results met and sometimes exceeded my expectations. Here’s a link to my weight loss journey.
So, how did I get back here? Back in 2020, let me tell you I saw myself at my goal weight living my best life by now. because I was so close to my goal weight of 180! Don’t get it twisted, I am definitely living my best life just not at my goal weight, lmao. When the pandemic shut down, it was honestly one of the best times of my life. There were no outside distractions, I was able to workout 2x a day since there was little to nothing to do. Ramadan was during the pandemic too, which was a game-changer for me which I can’t even explain in words. I think it was 2021 that life got away from me quickly and I went with convenience. I was working out excessively for 2-2.5 hours, with no proper nutrition or goal in sight. Eating out almost daily. Just a beautiful mess honestly.
Fast forward to 2022 and I’ve gained a little over 20 lbs total back since 2020. At the beginning of this year, I had a vision. I figured I could lose about 8lbs a month as long as I had both my nutrition and workout in check. I even shared an IG REEL telling folks to follow my journey. I am a strong believer in putting yourself out there, speaking your goals into existence, and just sharing your journey. I believe that allows you to keep yourself accountable and also find your people out there to let them know that they aren’t alone in their journey. That’s the beauty in social media, we can relate to others and know that we aren’t alone.
I posted that reel on January 20, 2022, and I have yet to post an update. I weighed in around 213 or so that day and then after that, I found myself weighing in between 218-220. It was lowkey depressing and stepping on that scale, my mind tried to play me. But, I quickly stopped that and looked at the bigger picture, asking myself the hard questions. I first went through my fitness routine. I was “injured,” so I couldn’t really do too much. No peloton bike. No high-intensity work. And definitely no lifting. I think that had a big part to do with why I wasn’t making any progress because the nutrition was NOT on point.
It was like for the first couple of days at the beginning of the week, I’d kill it. Eating healthy and staying at my calorie goal, 1600-1800 daily. And then Wednesday rolls around and I’m tired. Not really about eating healthy, but just life in general. Working full time, being a wife + mom, daily chores, content, and the list can go on. So, how was I going to change this?
My main concern was getting back healthy, so I could move my body how I want to … which entailed going to see a physical therapist and doing more recovery. I did that pretty much for the first three weeks in February. Out of the blue, my husband tells me how he’s going to go pick up his new office chair he just bought because his back has been causing him lots of pain. I was just like, wow … BINGO!!!! Not only am I lifting weights and working out, but I am also sitting in front of a computer at least 10 hours a day in a $20.00 used chair that I got off the Facebook marketplace. With quickness, I start looking for chairs and found the most perfect chair to fit my office aesthetic.
Now, I really did not want to buy it, because of the price … but I could tell the difference in how my body felt immediately. A few days later my sister purchased the same chair. You can check it out here.
The next thing to get in check was my nutrition. I had to figure something out because I knew I was NOT restricting myself from any type of food. If I wanted something then I was going to have it. Again, that is just fine too. I know what works for my body, if I didn’t there would be no way I would’ve lost over 70 lbs post-baby. Meal prep would be more frequent. I’m learning to set realistic goals. And to round this convo up, I’m also learning to accept where I am right now.
I’ll be honest, I have to remind myself at times to love my body and remember how damn strong I actually am. I am fine with how I look, but there are times when I can’t fit a pair of jeans or maybe I don’t like how I look in something and that’s okay. I’m allowed to have those feelings. I think it is just about me accepting where I’m at currently and also taking the necessary steps to reach my goals.
So, if you haven’t realized it yet … ya girl is going to be back to sharing my journey with you all. The lows + highs.
That’s my update. Be sure to check out my video for even more!
Ciao Beauties, XOXO