It’s that time of year folks, where we take a step back, and look at all we have done the past year. If I’m honest, I’d have to say I can’t really say how I feel about 2022. I mean, I guess I’m not all excited to write this, because I don’t have a sense of pride in myself. I don’t feel as though I met my goals. 2021 was hard for me, but growth and beauty came out of it. I wanted 2022 to be the year that I really stepped into my purpose. I feel as though I did no such thing and that is okay. It’s okay for me to feel that way.
Before we get into it, you can take a look at the goals I set for myself in 2022, 2021|It’s been real, bring on 2022.
I don’t know why it is so hard for me to remember this year.
The beginning of the year looked promising, I was getting brand deal and partnerships.
I took a trip with some of my closest girls to Fredericksburg in March which was amazing.
I was crying uncontrollably, because there were people in my life that were getting me to a point where I didn’t recognize myself. And when I see people, its really only one person. I think it took me about a week to snap out of it.
LOL, wait I’m seeing a trend. It usually does take me a week to snap out of things. I will say lately, it doesn’t take me that long because I’ve realized that life is short and I could be doing so much more with my time.
Anyways, I’m at a point where I’m going to cry it out for that day and then pick head up high and face reality. If you are new here or haven’t noticed, I’m a pretty emotional person.
Ramadan was good, had the best with my family during Eid of course.
Now, bring on the summer months. Especially with work, starting some time in May, I started having a feeling of unfulfilled in my role. It was the same constant thing day in and day out, the only thing that kept me slightly interested was my team. I wanted to move around, but there was a hiring freeze, and I was comfortable. I loved the company so much that I didn’t want to let it go. Despite feeling this way throughout the entire summer, I stayed stagnant. Will visit come back to this topic shortly.
Now summer was just crazy apart from work, it was socially draining. Now I feel as though that I had something to do with filling unfulfilled with work lol. Literally every single weekend someone somewhere had an event and sometimes on the same day. But when I say every single weekend, it was literally every weekend. Saturday and Sunday! My husband and I were like are people making up for the pandemic. And not to mention majority of my friends birthday are in the summer. And let me tell you, my birthday is July 11th and because of everything going on I didn’t celebrate my birthday with my people until the very last weekend of July.
S/N|I don’t know what I’m going to do for my birthday next year, but I definitely want it to be small. No dinner! It’ll either by a vacation or a staycation. I’m over dinners.
Alright back to work. August of 2022, I was laid off y’all! I don’t have much to really say about it, because I’m over it. Though I can say I was really bummed out because I genuinely loved the company and saw myself there for years. Now that I’m reminiscing about that time, I was telling others I was okay, but my actions/emotions didn’t match that. There were little thing that triggered my emotions, like the smallest of things. If you want a full view of how I was feeling, you can check out this post, A not so quick life update.
A month following that, I found out I was pregnant. LOL that is why I feel as though my actions/emotions were heightened because hello your body is changing and a baby is slowly growing inside of you right now! I did a whole post on finding out I was pregnant as well. Catch up now if you haven’t!! And it’s a girl.
I can’t explain how excited, nervous, and anxious I am about this. I mean there are so many emotions, but I know once 2023 is here, I really have to start preparing myself for this new change.
I’d say from September up until now, it has really been about me rediscovering myself? I think that’s the word to use. Trying to figure out how to move forward from here. I have successfully been using the habit stacking method I learned from the book Atomic Habits for the past month now. And it’s really helping.
My motto for 2023 is the same as last , to step into my purpose.
While being on my temporary hiatus from my career, I feel as though I am taking the steps now to ensure that I do just that in 2023. Now, not just professionally, but in my personal life as well. We have already had our 5th annual vision board soiree (pat on the back, I have always wanted to do this before the New Year) and now I have time to really pick that apart.
I’m not going to touch on 2023 goals just yet, but trust me you aren’t going to want to miss this.
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