We’re having a baby

Hi friends! I’m back and with some pretty damn exciting news. As it says, I’m pregnant! How crazy to say that I am going to be a mom of 2. My heart is so full and I don’t think I can really explain how grateful and happy I am. Lord knows this is about to be another challenge and adjustment in my life. It also explain why my emotions were so high in August and lack of energy. If you haven’t read my life update, click here.

Timing.

This will be my second pregnancy, 4 years after Ash. Immediately after I had Ash, I took the necessary steps to ensure that I wouldn’t get pregnant again until my husband and I were ready. It was all about timing for me. These past 4 years I was finding myself outside of being a mom & a wife, while juggling those roles. I was focused on my career + social media. I wanted to make it a point to keep my social life and do all the fun things. I wanted to strengthen my union with my husband. I wanted us to do all the things. And we did. I did what I needed to do for me. It wasn’t until late last year that the baby fever slowly started to creep in. As I saw friends/family becoming pregnant, I started to yearn for a baby. It took me a very long time to get here. I used to count my blessings when people told me they were pregnant (bad right lol), because I was like thank you Lord it’s not me. I just wasn’t ready. Given that I know I’m not getting younger and the baby fever was at an all time high … I knew it was time. My husband solidified it more, when he would question himself on why is he now having baby fever too, he’ll never admit he said it though.

So we had the conversation. The birth control was gone in August. Side note … nurses told me it would happen pretty fast. THEY WERE NOT LYING!

Finding out we’re pregnant.

In September, I was like you know what something isn’t right. You know there was a big change in August, but I actually felt good mentally. I was still nauseous and when I say I had no energy … there was NONE hunny! I thought it was because of the shift that happened in August that it had made me so sick I was getting nauseous. I thought I had fallen into a depression, so workouts were slim to none. And then I got notification on my flo app … sis it’s time to take a test. I waited a few days to take the test, because I’m in my 30s now and pregnant. So many different things can happen. I didn’t want to get too excited, because what if it was negative. Well, I took the test and it was positive.

It’s a moment that I won’t forget. I was shocked. Happy for the most part and just praising God for this beautiful blessing.

First Trimester.

It feels as though it has gone by so fast yet so slow at the same time. One thing I hated was that I had to about 5 weeks just to get my ultrasound + meet my doctor. It was worth the wait. First time seeing the baby brought so many emotions. The nausea is there, but not as much as it was in August + September. My exhaustion on a scale of 1-10 would actually BREAK THE SCALE. I can’t explain it. It’s like my body is literally glued to the couch or bed. Listen there are no more 4:00 AM workouts for this gal, I’ll be lucky if I work out 3x/week. If I do a workout that involved lifting/running, I AM OUT FOR THE REST OF THE DAY. Period. I am looking forward to the second trimester, because I want my energy back, and I want it now. I’m working out a lot more already this pregnancy, so that makes me very happy. I gained 70+ pounds my first pregnancy. If I have it my way, I do not want to gain more than 30 pounds because let me tell you the summer weight I put on was REAL.

My main focus.

Honestly, IDK! I think right now I am focusing on my health. Staying stress free, while getting things done. Keeping an eye on my weight gain and being comfortable with it too. It’s inevitable, I know I am going to gain weight. I just a slight fear that I’ll be back to 270+ pounds. Though I know I am in a better space. Working out has become a part of my lifestyle + routine. I’m just going to enjoy being pregnant, I don’t think I was in a position to do that my first time. It was foreign whatever was going on in my body. So, I plan to be more present. I don’t think I’ll start buying much until I know the sex, but you guys are definitely welcome to come along this journey with me.

Excited to grow our family and watch Ash be the best big brother ever.