As you look at the three images above, what do you see? I’ll give you a minute.
Now let’s see if you see what I see. I see a young woman who isn’t comfortable in her own skin anymore. A new mom who feels the same inside, but when she looks in the mirror she doesn’t recognize the reflection staring back at her. How many of you can relate?
Can you guess how I got here? I’m sure if you’re a mom then you can definitely relate.
I love my bubs and the joy he has brought into his father and I’s life, but I absolutely hate my postpartum body, so lets get into that!
This past weekend, I was able to get dolled up … even though it took an entire day. As any girl would do, I whipped out my phone and began to take selfies on the snap(chat)! I wouldn’t dare take a full body picture. Hence, why these pictures above are so much more than a simple selfie. They actually speak for themselves … showing how I feel about myself + my body.
We live in a time where social media where women give birth and have that automatic “snap back” … but that is not my reality. I find myself comparing my body + journey to other new moms that post their perfect progress pictures and training videos making it look effortless. I’m starting to get impatient, wanting to get back to where I was before baby … but even if I do get to that I still want to lose even more.
I’ve played sports all my life, I am an athlete, and I feel like I have lost all my muscle definition. Everything is just j i g g l y. My belly is flabby and it hangs over my pants, that wasn’t there before I got pregnant! My thighs are big, I mean they’ve always been big, but I didn’t realize how big they could actually get … ha ha ha. My gosh, I was pretty satisfied with my body before I was pregnant!
I am slowly accepting my new body and reminding myself that my body grew a human for 9 months. And that is pretty freaking awesome if you ask me, it’s a blessing. Ashraf is literally more than I could’ve prayed for, so I will continue to remind myself to exercise patience and be kind to this body of mine that brought me my bubs. And most of all thankful for the blessing of a healthy baby boy.
I was a little hesitant about putting myself out there and sharing how I really feel, but hey we all have our insecurities! In my opinion, I feel like it is nice to know that you are not alone and other people go through what you go through as well. Even if it is not the same exact situation. Feel free to share your story with me without feeling judged, we are in this together!
With that being said, I’m getting my life together! I’m going to stop feeling insecure about my new body and do what needs to be done to kick back into that workout life. Stay tuned, I’ll let you know what my plans are for the next month!
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You are beautiful! & you’ll be back to your fit self in no time! Don’t compare your journey to anyone else’s.. love you! 😘
Thank you so much! I’m working on it, love you too💕💕💕😘
Sim you’re one of the strongest and most determined women I know. I know you will be back crossfit and feeling more like yourself in no time. Just enjoy that beautiful baby boy, the snapback will be here before you know it.😘
Sim you’re one of the strongest and most determined women I know. I know you will be back to crossfit and feeling more like yourself in no time. Just enjoy that beautiful baby boy, the snapback will be here before you know it.😘
Hi Simi. It’s Ogonna (OG). Just discovered your blog so catching up. Just want to say I can identify and you are brave for putting your vulnerabilities out there. I am currently in my postpartum weight loss journey as well. I started when my daughter was about 15 months. One of the huge shockers for me was that breastfeeding made me hungrier than when pregnant and I gained more weight postpartum. I didn’t really watch what I ate cos word on the street was “everyone” loses weight breastfeeding. Lol big fat lie for me. Anyhow slowly but surely with intermittent fasting and working out I have achieved my first goal. It took months for me. This is to say given your determination and strength I believe in you. Most importantly, is to continue to strive love your body now as it carried and grew that beautiful boy. 💕
OG! Hey, so so sorry for this late response. I didn’t see it. I definitely gained so much weight while pregnant, but while breastfeeding I was trying to increase my milk supply that I was eating so much!v LOL, the whole everyone loses weight when breastfeeding was most definitely a lie in my case as well.
Thank you so much for your comment, lol maybe I need that little pick me up today. Glad I got on today. Hope your weight loss journey is still headed in the right direction. I’m still working on mine, I’m giving myself until the 1st of 2020 to reach my goal weight.